good things:
- 4 more months of school
- things couldn't be better with donny and i...love you baby!
- me and katie are going on a date SOOON!
-girls night saturday with court, lauren, and katieee! three of my favorite girls!
- donny is selling that p.o.s truck of his
- track starts in 2 weeks
- i have some freaking awesome friends that i'm really blessed to have
- v-day is sooooon!
- free tanning weekend is this weekend! hell yeah!
- donny's 18th birthday is sooooon!
- i love my hott mama!

not so great things:
- 4 more months of school
- still don't know whats going on with college, although i guess i'm lucky to have even been accepted
-sometimes it hurts when i think of how hard i tried to keep it together no matter how little you tried and it's all for nothing.  i really do hope you are happy and that one day you wake up and realize that you are pretty much alone. i'm done caring.
- missing some people alot today. shawn- everyday i wake up and think it's a dream and pray to God that when i get to school i'll hear about the latest funny thing you've done. i know you are in a better place now but we all still can't help but miss you.  memere- a year today.  wow.  you were my only grandma and i couldn't have asked for better.  i try to remember all the great times we had instead of thinking about missing you so much but it's hard.  i love you.

well i guess it's good that i have more good than bad things.  all in all it's been pretty chill lately.  which is a switch to my normally chaotic life.  well thats it for now.  comments are lovely

When you are around someone so much even when you aren't near them you can still remember every detail.  The way they look, the way they smell, how they say certain words funny, and even how they get that look in their eye when they are up to something (and you were ALWAYS up to something). It’s been 4 years and everyday I’m scared to death that one day I’ll wake up and all those things will be a little hazy.  then I think about Brittany and mike and I look around the block and see that big white truck and I realize that there is no way that will happen.  You are missed just as much today as you were on this day 4 years ago.  It’s not a question of "getting over it."  I don't want to get over it.  How do you get over someone who has made such an impact on who you are today?  I will never forget the way you made people feel instantly at home and how you always let the people that mattered to you know.  So this is my way of letting you know what I never had the chance to say.  Ever since the day you walked into my house looking for juice 11 years agoI knew I could always count on you and I will always be grateful of that.  I know you are happy where you are and that you are watching over all of us.  And "I’m sure the view from heaven beats the hell outta mine here."  Missing you bud

"sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone and im sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here and if we all believe in heaven, maybe we'll make it through one more year down here. feel your fire, when its cold in my heart and things sorta start reminding me..."

Never Forgotten:
Jonathan (JD) Danrick Aleman 11.15.85-1.22.02
Shawn (sick boy) Ashley Redding 4.16.85-12.1.05 ... Still can't believe you're gone. You are missed by so many people.  You were like a big brother to me and i will never forget you.

well it's been awhile since i posted last.  let's see if i can fit everything in.  i'll go backwards.

-I quit my job today.  Too much bull crap that I was tired of taking.  So now I have to look for a new job but at least I have Donny to support me for a bit.

-Christmas...well it was different.  First one without my grandma and shawn.  But I got to go christmas shopping with lauren which was the 4th year in a row.  Donny is amazing.  He got me everything I could have wanted and more!  Including...

this gorgeous ring!  I'm a very lucky girl.  Too bad I couldn't even enjoy it without someone starting drama.  But I can't be to blame for that and I'm done with it.  I've decided today that I'm not letting myself be treated like crap so thats it.  Anyways I spoiled Donny alot too so that made me feel good...I just like seeing him happy.  After dinner and everything we went to BWI and dropped my sister and her bf off for their trip to vegas then me and donny got lost in downtown baltimore for a while before going to see his family in maryland for a bit.  All it all it was pretty good.  Couldn't help but miss some people though. 

-I saw the lovely lauren torskey (aka fratelli) and that was awesome!  Kaylee is adorable and I'm going to hate to see them leave to go back to texas.

-I've gotten to spend some time with courtney.  I love that girl she is awesome and probably one of the most genuinly sweet people I've ever met.

-I've pretty much just been working and saving money for christmas presents.

-Begining of the month was extremly hard.  Lost someone that ment alot to alot of people.  It's weird to go certain places or do certain things and not seeing him around. But he's in a better place now where he is looking after all the people he loved and that love him.  It's hard to see people I really love hurt so much everyday but YOU know I'm always here and that will never change.  What else are best friends for? 

-Got accepted into Florida State, University of Florida, University of Central Florida, and University of Tampa!  But I've thought a lot about it and made the decision to go to DelTech.  It's free for 2 years so thats about 32,000 less i'll be in debt and plus it does have one of the best nursing programs on the east coast.  But I will NOT be staying at home, donny and I are moving out.  Either just the two of us or maybe some others if we can find people that we trust enough to pay rent and that we could stand to live with. 

thats about it.  just living life.  have a lot of free time on my hand now that i don't have work and donny is at work during that day and it's break.  looking forward to spending time with the big girl and hopefully getting to see bri sometime soon. 



for your viewing enjoyment: some might be bad quality but they were taken with my phone

ADORABLENESS with my best friend

 christmas eve at my house

 flowers donny got me!

 donny's army christmas party/turkey lunch.  he was not happy to be there...he wanted to go home and sleep.

thats it.  i'm done.  it's long. comment.

 gosh i love this boy (scanned kinda blurry but oh well)

-so i'm pretty much staying in delaware for college.  probably deltech. 
-courtney has me considering changing my mind about nursing.  co-owning a real estate company at the beach is sounding real nice.
-my boyfriend is amazing and i would be completely lost without him. 
-i will be moving out of my house come july/august.
-lauren torskey (aka fratelli) and her beautiful daughter kaylee will be visiting for christmas come the 11th and i'm VERY excited! but please pray for her in hopes that she realizes how amazing she is and how much she is loved!
-i love my best friend lauren mother fuckin redding!  i miss hanging out with her all the time. 
 

-i got to hang out with brittany jayne bergeron which was great.  i miss that girl.  we can always just pick up where we left off no matter how long its been and it's never an effort.
-did i mention i love donny?
-still haven't started christmas shopping.  i'm such a last minute shopper. but at least i get it done in time.
-everyone is getting spoiled this year for christmas so be prepared those special people of mine.  that goes alot for SOMEONE in particular.(coughdonnycough)
-if it weren't for jackie i would probably kill myself at school.  that girl cracks me up and i don't know what i would do without her in insane kane's class.
 twin day!

well thats about it.  don't really know but i just felt like posting.

new background too!  "you are my sunshine!" 7.16.04 love you!

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well the weather is getting really really cold and christmas is 36 or something odd days away.  amazing.  time has definitally gone by, although right now it couldn't be slower. 

lots of things are changing lately.  none really bad but nothing awesome either.  i guess change is a part of everyday life.  what can ya do?

this time of year i really miss my grandma.  funny how it's taken almost a year for reality to hit.  christmas isn't going to be the same.  i wish my grandpa lived closer so he wasn't so lonely.

another month just passed and i couldn't be more in love with you.  we've been having our differences lately but i'm sure it will pass.  just have to keep remembering to think about the little things right? 

well thats about it.  school and work as usual is my life so nothing very interesting(waittt....i did see harry potter opening night with kayla, donny, and tyler so that was pretty great).  but yeah other than that just gotta save up for christmas!  hope everyone is doing good and if i don't get around to it on thursday... Happy Thanksgiving!  GET STUFFED!


My Memere :(